This is Love!

A repost from my old blogging site (Multiply) which is now gone.

----------------------- Originally written last 15 May 2009 ------------------------

I have understood GOD's love for me since I was a teenager.
Few of the great illustrations are:
1. Knowing a person of higher status to sacrifice life for a friend.
2. Having a righteous master value HIS servant by serving him instead.
3. A father who sacrificed his son for the rest of the world.

I can relate to first 2 easily, But point 3 is so strongly illustrated to me when Jan Ethan Dei R. Blazo came into my life only. How? When he came into my life, I can forget all about the other things that surround me. This includes my dreams, personal desires, things that I got used to and my total self. Or even good to say that I will do everything even if it will cost me everything too just to give him the best things in the world: care, love, guidance and all other good things.
I love him with all that I am and all that I have. I think I will die if something bad happens to him. In fact just the thought of it now makes my tears roll out of my eyes in a race.


What more is GOD's love!

In Matthew 7:9-11 and repeated in Luke 11: 11-13, God mentioned that a human being like me who is evil by nature, knows how to give good gifts for his son, how much more is my Father in heaven?

With how much I love my son, I can not grasp the LOVE God has for me and each and every person on earth... My emotions can not relay it well, my actions will not even be enough to illustrate nor the words in my vocabulary could ever describe...

Just can't help but cry imagining how GOD loved us. What a great love!
I may not always appreciate it because I do not understand everything He had planned for me. But He has nothing less than what is best stored for me. Just like Ethan now who doesn't understand everything why we give and doesn't give him things. He just becomes happy whenever he gets what he wants and cries if he don't get it... without thinking if it is good for him or not. (Of course he will not know, he just turned 1!)

Ethan loves to play danger: with wires and strings -- actually anything he can pull, throw and lick later on, something that he could step on or run thru... but of course it makes us leap whenever we found him playing near sockets and wiring or any dangerous thing. Just like my human nature. I am thankful and grateful only when God gives me what I desired and asked HIM... But when things started to moved on the other way which is different from what I am anticipating, I panic, get depressed and frustrated, to a point sometimes that I started blaming GOD for what I thought to be bad thing that is happening to me.

I have an office mate who lost her 3 & half years old son only last Thursday, 14 May 2009 because of an unknown reason... She's in so much pain and depression now... She will cry for every statement she expresses. She said that she doesn't even know how to go back to normal life again. I wouldn't really know exactly what she's going thru now because even if I empathize, it will still be a different thing when you're there... Maybe GOD would perfectly understand how she felt because HIS son died too. I now pray to GOD that He comforts her with all that she needs to recover.

Am sure parents out there can feel exactly what I am trying to relay now.

I am now experiencing to love a son who means the whole world to me.
And I am letting the whole world know that GOD's love is even greater than we can ever experience!!!

Ranch Rush

Have you encountered the game by the name of Ranch Rush?

It is a computer game that actually mimic ranch activities like planting crops, harvesting, cow milking, honeybee farming, wooling the sheep, up to producing products like cheese, tomato ketchup, jams and bread. It has a goal of providing the product orders set as you start each game. So it basically lets you strategize and multi task to be able to accomplish all the orders within a given time to finish a stage and go up to the next level. The next level will have more product orders and will require you to speed up your multi tasking more.

The 8 different icons on top are the orders need to be fulfilled while the clock in the left side of the score is the time given to fulfill them.

I super like this game because it is relaxing for me. I just concentrate on the orders and be the best multitasker I can be and I can finish all the stages. So, imagine when I play this, I almost don't think of anything else including time and things to do of reality.

Yesterday and last Friday ( January 23-24), I attended the CCF leadership training called Overflow where God allowed me to learn this statement thru Rev. Edmund Chan: "I need to create a space in my life where God can guide me" and it normally does not happen when I'm too busy doing my things. Whether these things are just required of me or make me happy I should deliberately and consciously create a space for Him to guide me by taking time to learn from Him and know His will for me.
I, then, thought similar to that Ranch Rush game, I am prone to planning things and working on them everyday that I get so busy with life. I tend to miss the opportunities of asking Him in everyway possible to guide me. I admit, I have so many things in mind I need to work on: family, work, friends, ambitions and dreams etc. and so aware of the short time on earth. But being busy even in these seemingly good things can hinder me to be guided by God and probably work things out on my own.

As I digest this, I am reminded of the verse Matthew 6:21 that says: For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I tend to be focused on things that seem to be important however, it allows me to burn out later as I thought these were just small things I can already act upon without so much of Him. Thus, if I treasure my God and everything He has done for me, I should surrender my life's every room without reservation. And, unlike Ranch Rush, I will be more excited to do things His way than accomplish things on my own

Aha! that was an amazing learning. If in one of the coming days I'll forget this learning, just the thought of Ranch Rush will remind me.

Thank you, Lord :)